I woke up the next day still overstimulated, clit tingling from too much attention the night before. Despite the fact that I really couldn't take any more stimulation I gently fingered myself in the shower, careful to avoid my clit, while rubbing my breasts as the water washed the sweat and come off my skin from the night before.
At work I was robotic and disconnected and the eight hours I was there went by in a blur. Every time I went to the bathroom I felt that electric current of stimulation again and longed for the end of my shift. Mary... I wanted to call her but I held off. I didn't want to risk coming off as too intense and scare her away so I thought a day or two would be best.
I got out of work late. I really only had one good friend and a bunch of acquaintances. My best friend was a very obviously gay man who was intelligent, sarcastic, and who loved to get drinks and go out with friends. I could ask him to go out with me any night of the week and we would go out, sit at the bar and drink beer and shots all night while we talked about people in the bar we wanted to have sex with. His type of man and mine were vastly different. I liked men with small cocks and thin women with devious and sensual eyes. He liked big fat men with thick cocks. The bear type. That night I was still clearly in a heightened state of arousal.
"What the hell has gotten into you tonight. You look like you're going to impale yourself on that post over there." He noticed right away
"I met somebody"
"Who is he?"
"She."
"Oh shit! This is going to be great!"
"I just need to get her out of my head. It's nothing more than a sexual obsession really. I have been so horny ever since. I am going home with some man I meet here tonight. I'll meet you for breakfast tomorrow morning though."
As soon as he and I had made our plans and my intentions were clear I downed a shot, finished my beer and headed out into the main part of the bar with my new beer in hand, totally out of my element but ready to dance and mingle anyways. I actually wore a feminine outfit for a change, a miniskirt, a tight tank top, no bra. I wanted it and I wanted it badly. I may have looked the part but I really didn't know what to do with myself. I found another attractive woman sidled up next to her and said 'hi' as I danced in her general area the same way I've seen women in bars do before. She smiled and after a few minutes of dancing a handsome, tall, muscular man came up behind her and started grinding against her. I watched them dance. They clearly knew each other and I could see that his pants were getting tighter as he danced behind her. I felt myself get wet as I watched what looked too much like foreplay to be coincidence. They knew I was watching and gave me a show. He caressed every part of her body through her clothes and she tilted her head back, closed her eyes and just moved with the music. When the song finished she grabbed my arm and pulled me into the bathroom.
"Hi. I'm Amber. I noticed you watching Bry dance with me."
She wasted no time in waiting for a response. With her eyes locked on mine she slid her hand up my miniskirt. I was so wet that it had started to run down the inside of my thigh.
"Nothing but a skirt. Nice" She commented.
She started to finger me wildly. I jumped up onto the sink and she buried her face under my skirt licking and fingering me at the same time until I came. She backed off for a minute watching me brace myself as I shuddered. After it passed I jumped down off the counter and pushed her against the wall as I kissed her and slid my hands up under her shirt. Just as I got there she stopped me.
"I think Bry would love this do you mind a third?"
"Not at all. Oh, and I'm Laurel."
"Nice to meet you Laurel."
I could barely contain myself as we walked back to their place. Bry was one of those men who really liked to talk dirty so he and Amber spent the entirety of the walk describing what they were going to do to both each other and me. The second we passed through the door Amber grabbed my hand and shoved it down the front of her tight fitting jeans that she had somehow unbuttoned as she walked to the bedroom.
Once there she threw off her clothes and stripped me down. She began kissing my breasts, my stomach and then the curve by my hipbones that sent a wave of wetness rushing down my legs. Bry walked in and watched his girlfriend pleasure me with his shirt off and his cock sticking out from the fly of his jeans. He stroked himself while he watched. She moved back up from sucking on my clit and kissed her way up my body until she found my mouth. Her body felt so nice pressed against mine and I locked eyes with Bry as we kissed. Conscious of his watching us I moved my hand down her flat stomach until I reached her very wet pussy. I couldn't believe how nice it felt, another woman's pussy and in my excitement I clumsily flipped her over and went down to taste her for myself. I had myself positioned so I could see Bry and his cock while I ate out Amber. She wasn't salty at all but sweet like nectar and I couldn't get enough. I jammed my finger into her and she let out a loud moan. Bry moaned as well and I started licking her faster until she came.
At this point I could tell that he couldn't take just watching anymore. I walked over to him naked and covered in his girlfriend's sweat and come. I unzipped his pants and went down on him until he came swallowing his come greedily while it was Amber's turn to watch, but she had a hard time just watching and started fingering me just as he climaxed in my mouth. The suddenness of her fingers inside me brought me to climax again and we all collapsed on the floor in a pile of sweat and exhaustion.
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Purple Pt. 1
When she entered the line to check out I noticed her immediately. She was wearing a fitted dark purple shirt and tight black pencil skirt. She was exactly my type: thin, very feminine, small but full rounded breasts, dark wavy hair that was long and shiny with subtle tastefully done highlights the may very well have come from sunning herself on the beach this summer rather than a salon. I imagined her in a bikini with sand stuck to the sides of her thighs and the top of her breasts peeking above her bikini top moist with sweat and the salt from the ocean, and I blushed as I rang up the gentleman in line in front of her. I didn't make eye contact with him and continued to glance slyly at her out of the corner of my eye.
It took forever for the man's transaction to be finished which only heightened my anticipation. She must have felt my energy as she walked up because she was nervous and fidgety.
"I love your shirt. What a great color."
She looked up at me and blushed. I'm not super feminine as a thin woman with small breasts, but I have large hips, a small waist and a round butt. I saw her take all this in with a glance and she blushed while I slowly rang her order through my register. She fumbled with her money and then again with the change I handed her. I brushed my hand against hers and felt a current of electricity run through my fingertips to hers and back again. She glanced up clearly excited and horrified but nevertheless apparently aroused.
I spent the rest of the day wet and aching for the feeling of her tongue on my clit, her hands rubbing my body while I simultaneously lick and taste her wet salty fluids. Before she left my line I mentioned heading to a local cafe to a coworker when I got out of work at five hoping she would hear and go there to meet me. I desperately hoped that she felt it too.
As the day wore on and on my excitement didn't lessen, in fact, it only increased until it became an overflowing of passion like water behind a dam looking for a release, but my confidence in our mutual attraction had waned. By the time I got to the cafe, I did a quick scan and didn't see a single flash of purple anywhere around, so I seated myself in a cozy tucked away corner around a bit of a half wall. It was the only place in the cafe where a person could almost feel alone with themselves even in such a public place. There was an outlet, so I plugged in my laptop, turned on my iPod, and settled into my own thoughts. I thought about how it was all just as well. I had never been with a woman before and judging by her reaction to me she had never been a woman either.
Thinking about our inexperience made me start longing for her in a whole new way. I imagined us not in a public place taken by passion but in my bedroom with candles and wine gently caressing every curve of the others body discovering all the hidden places. I imagined her perfect round breasts and the crease at their base where I would kiss her just long enough to drive her wild. I wanted to reach under her dark tight purple shirt and unclasp her bra with one hand to free them to my searching touch. I had just touched my lips to her breasts in my fantasy when I became aware of eyes on me and movement in the periphery. A woman in a dark blazer and skirt stood up to take off her blazer. I saw a flash of purple and knew it was her but wanted to give myself a moment to clear the blush in my cheeks before finally looking up in her direction. But something in her had changed. Her eyes we no longer shy and and frightened. She was in control of herself and I wanted so badly for her to be in control of me as well.
"Hi. Mary." She said extending a hand in greeting.
"Like the virgin Mary?" I thought immediately turning the conversation to some sort of sexual reference would be in my favor.
"No, like Mary Magdalene."
"Well, then that begs the question," I let the silence linger while I took in the shape of her body again, "how was Jesus?"
"Let's just say I'm glad to be here with you."
Smooth. Perfectly smooth and sexy and where did she come from? My God! Smart, witty, beyond gorgeous and she wanted me. It was almost too much. I was already quite wet from a day of thinking about her but I felt a new wave of wetness drench my already moist pussy. Silence lingered a bit too long and her confidence slowly vanished as the seconds dragged by. So she was new at this too, I thought, the momentary confidence must have been a facade.
Once the silence passed and I found something to say to her, (so what do you like to read) we sat in the cafe for a few hours in our little nook and talked about literature, philosophy and love until closing time. We added each other as contacts in our cell phones and exchanged a European hug and cheek kiss as we said goodbye for the evening followed by an awkward moment of neither knowing what to do. That night I masturbated for so long, on the couch, in the shower, in bed, alone in my apartment wanting her but couldn't get the lingering scent of her perfume and pheromones out of my nostrils.
It took forever for the man's transaction to be finished which only heightened my anticipation. She must have felt my energy as she walked up because she was nervous and fidgety.
"I love your shirt. What a great color."
She looked up at me and blushed. I'm not super feminine as a thin woman with small breasts, but I have large hips, a small waist and a round butt. I saw her take all this in with a glance and she blushed while I slowly rang her order through my register. She fumbled with her money and then again with the change I handed her. I brushed my hand against hers and felt a current of electricity run through my fingertips to hers and back again. She glanced up clearly excited and horrified but nevertheless apparently aroused.
I spent the rest of the day wet and aching for the feeling of her tongue on my clit, her hands rubbing my body while I simultaneously lick and taste her wet salty fluids. Before she left my line I mentioned heading to a local cafe to a coworker when I got out of work at five hoping she would hear and go there to meet me. I desperately hoped that she felt it too.
As the day wore on and on my excitement didn't lessen, in fact, it only increased until it became an overflowing of passion like water behind a dam looking for a release, but my confidence in our mutual attraction had waned. By the time I got to the cafe, I did a quick scan and didn't see a single flash of purple anywhere around, so I seated myself in a cozy tucked away corner around a bit of a half wall. It was the only place in the cafe where a person could almost feel alone with themselves even in such a public place. There was an outlet, so I plugged in my laptop, turned on my iPod, and settled into my own thoughts. I thought about how it was all just as well. I had never been with a woman before and judging by her reaction to me she had never been a woman either.
Thinking about our inexperience made me start longing for her in a whole new way. I imagined us not in a public place taken by passion but in my bedroom with candles and wine gently caressing every curve of the others body discovering all the hidden places. I imagined her perfect round breasts and the crease at their base where I would kiss her just long enough to drive her wild. I wanted to reach under her dark tight purple shirt and unclasp her bra with one hand to free them to my searching touch. I had just touched my lips to her breasts in my fantasy when I became aware of eyes on me and movement in the periphery. A woman in a dark blazer and skirt stood up to take off her blazer. I saw a flash of purple and knew it was her but wanted to give myself a moment to clear the blush in my cheeks before finally looking up in her direction. But something in her had changed. Her eyes we no longer shy and and frightened. She was in control of herself and I wanted so badly for her to be in control of me as well.
"Hi. Mary." She said extending a hand in greeting.
"Like the virgin Mary?" I thought immediately turning the conversation to some sort of sexual reference would be in my favor.
"No, like Mary Magdalene."
"Well, then that begs the question," I let the silence linger while I took in the shape of her body again, "how was Jesus?"
"Let's just say I'm glad to be here with you."
Smooth. Perfectly smooth and sexy and where did she come from? My God! Smart, witty, beyond gorgeous and she wanted me. It was almost too much. I was already quite wet from a day of thinking about her but I felt a new wave of wetness drench my already moist pussy. Silence lingered a bit too long and her confidence slowly vanished as the seconds dragged by. So she was new at this too, I thought, the momentary confidence must have been a facade.
Once the silence passed and I found something to say to her, (so what do you like to read) we sat in the cafe for a few hours in our little nook and talked about literature, philosophy and love until closing time. We added each other as contacts in our cell phones and exchanged a European hug and cheek kiss as we said goodbye for the evening followed by an awkward moment of neither knowing what to do. That night I masturbated for so long, on the couch, in the shower, in bed, alone in my apartment wanting her but couldn't get the lingering scent of her perfume and pheromones out of my nostrils.
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Fictional Erotica
So in trying to have some sort of sexual outlet I've begun delving into fictional erotica. Some is fantasy based on real life some is totally pulled out of my ass. Much like the anal masturbation one. I've never done it, don't know what it feels like, but I ask a lot of questions and that's where I ended up.
I've been working on a lesbian piece for weeks now and although it's based on fantasy I still can't seem to get it right.... What is wrong with me?! Why can't I write lesbian erotica as a straight woman who fantasizes about women? Help!
I've been working on a lesbian piece for weeks now and although it's based on fantasy I still can't seem to get it right.... What is wrong with me?! Why can't I write lesbian erotica as a straight woman who fantasizes about women? Help!
Saturday, September 3, 2011
Charcoal Nude
In college sexual frustration was so much easier to deal with. You could just go out to any random party, get drunk, meet some guy, and then go home with him. Never speak to him again. When that fails or when I was feeling not just horny but emotionally confused or damaged I would sign up to model for an art class, get naked and sit, stand or lay still while art students drew or painted my naked body. It didn't turn me on having a whole class look at my naked body but it did clear my mind and put everything into perspective. Being turned on and wet would be too personal. It would be embarrassing.
After college when I would be in the same place and needed some time to think I tried the same only instead of modelling for a class I did one on one's with artists. It wasn't quite the same. Some were boyfriends some were strangers but it always felt awkward. I would try to make conversation about anything other than sex or nudity or any physical act of any kind.
"I don't know, man. I guess I just always thought of Thoreau as a big mooch. I mean he has some good aphorisms and all but for the most part he didn't really engage in civil disobedience so much as live in Emerson's backyard and walk the mere mile to town to get anything he needed. Walden was just a big pile of excrement in my book."
And after a few hours of that I would head home and reflect on how different it was to do a one on one rather than a class. There were some photographers too and that was even more awkward because it was over so soon I felt like I never found my element. Eventually I just gave up and took to dealing with my frustration the old fashioned way. Fucking the hell out of my partner. We never even made love once in the years we were together. I just turned him into any and all frustrations I had in life and then fucked those frustrations into submission. In retrospect, it probably wasn't the healthiest for my relationship which ended up, well, ending.
We were still living together for a while and I looked for a replacement roommate and a replacement apartment at the same time. Both seemed impossible to find. Then one night at work I ran into a regular and somehow the fact that I was moving came up and he and his roommate said that they were looking for a new roommate and was I interested? Was I? Two artists, both handsome men that I was not attracted to that I could live with, eat meals with and talk about beer and sex with. Sign me up.
One of the roommates was gone almost all of the time so it just left Hugo and I. He was French, played the guitar and was a dark and beautiful artist. Tortured really. His artwork was all over the apartment and while I was looking at his website one day I found that he does some stunning nudes. I got excited and realized that this may be my modeling salvation. He could very well save me from the insanity raging in my brain. I didn't feel the need to make useless conversation with him so we could just sit quietly and work. It would be perfect.
Over dinner the next day I asked him about his models, who he uses, when was his last model, etc and told him that I would be very interested if he ever needed one.
"Well, what are you doing now?" Hugo had this way of being suggestive without making any facial expressions, his eyes just twinkled at me.
"Well I was planning on drinking a beer and knitting, so I'm certainly game."
"Ok, I'll clean up here and you can set up in front of my easel upstairs."
I walked upstairs confidently but as I reached the top landing I felt a wave of unease. This seemed to be going quicker than I had time to process. Rather than stand around thinking I figured why not just jump right in. I stripped down to nothing and was positioned shyly in his studio by the time he made it upstairs.
"You're quick."
"So are you."
"You'd be surprised. Is that the position that you're comfortable in?"
It was and he proceeded to sit down with his charcoal and start sketching. I was positioned in a way that would hide my pussy from view and nearly all of my chest. He didn't seem to mind and worked effortlessly while I was left with my own thoughts. I started thinking about my sexual frustration and how I had gotten to where I was in the first place, nude and sitting in the bedroom studio of my roommate who I had sworn to have no intimate relations with. I was wondering if modelling would even help to take the edge off like it had in college when I glanced over at him. His eyes were still twinkling though his face was calm and collected. His sketching was getting audibly more ferocious and as I looked down at his pants where the bulge there seemed to have grown. I could see the outline of his stiffened cock. No way. He had never so much as checked my ass out that I had noticed and there he was hard and getting harder sketching me with all of my erotic parts shyly covered. I felt my pussy heat up and start to moisten. He dramatically flipped the page over and made eye contact with me.
"Would you mind changing your position a little bit for the next sketch?"
He asked in a way that implied that he would be just as happy if I stayed where I was if I felt uncomfortable and presumed nothing. He hadn't noticed my sudden arousal. Rather than reply to his question, I moved the hand covering my breast slowly down my stomach to my now quite wet pussy like I was going to cover it in an act of shyness. He was paying less attention now because he was readying his next piece and when he looked up again I had moved so that I could both touch myself without ruining the scene and give him a better view of my body. I parted my legs slightly as he looked up and gently moved my hand over my clit.
"Is this ok?"
He nodded his consent and his cock swelled even more through his ever tightening jeans. There was a small light by his easel pointed in my direction. I looked down and could see it's effect on my wet pussy. I was literally glistening. He moved his hand towards his pants and I rubbed a little harder thinking that he would soon be touching himself as well, but he just adjusted his cock to give it the room that it needed to grow and kept sketching effortlessly. When he looked back up at me and saw my even more advanced state of arousal his eyes dilated and he froze transfixed for a minute. Nothing in our previous interactions would have predicted the scene he was now witnessing. Even I had no idea this would happen. He sketched a moment more hurriedly and told me that if I would like to see the pictures I should come check them out. I stood up and took my hand off myself and slowly walked over. I walked around him and pressed my naked body against his back as I surveyed the sketch that was just born from my public masturbation. I expected to see my body in that provocative pose on display for him but what I saw shocked me. Just my hand and the parts it was touching. Nothing more.
He turned towards me and said, "you are very beautiful." I blushed again and he grabbed me by ass hard and pulled my closer to him. I thought he wanted to kiss me but instead he started touching every part of my exposed body feeling, licking, searching. For what? Whatever it was he found it in short order and started slowly sucking my clit. I started shaking and held his shoulders and grabbed his hair as I came in his mouth. We pulled apart immediately as I stood there shaking neither of us knowing what to do next.
He was still hard and his cock was throbbing hard in his pants. It wanted to be free, so I unbuttoned his pants and freed his magnificent cock. It wasn't huge and it wasn't small but it looked like a penis from a Greek sculpture. Perfect symmetry smooth skin. I was taken aback by it for a moment. He thrust his middle finger inside me with one hand and grabbed his cock with the other and touched us both while I just watched my pussy get covered in charcoal and while his face got hungrier and closer to climax. I pulled away again and grabbed his body to force him into standing. His body was even more perfect standing so I took off his shirt and kissed his lean torso while teasing his cock but not touching it directly or letting him touch himself.
We fell into his bed or I was pushed into bed it was hard to tell. The tortured art had to have been a reflection of his sexual frustration as the modeling was for mine because he thrusted into me like he wanted to touch every part of me from inside. The search for all my hidden places continued for what felt like hours. He picked me up and threw me on top. I brought myself to coming a dozen or so times using his body as a tool then he picked me up and threw me back down and entered me from behind. He grabbed my ass as he got closer and closer and then we came together, collapsed and fell asleep.
Hours later our roommate came home and walked in on that scene. He turned around as we woke up to see his horrified face and just laughed as he got hard again.
After college when I would be in the same place and needed some time to think I tried the same only instead of modelling for a class I did one on one's with artists. It wasn't quite the same. Some were boyfriends some were strangers but it always felt awkward. I would try to make conversation about anything other than sex or nudity or any physical act of any kind.
"I don't know, man. I guess I just always thought of Thoreau as a big mooch. I mean he has some good aphorisms and all but for the most part he didn't really engage in civil disobedience so much as live in Emerson's backyard and walk the mere mile to town to get anything he needed. Walden was just a big pile of excrement in my book."
And after a few hours of that I would head home and reflect on how different it was to do a one on one rather than a class. There were some photographers too and that was even more awkward because it was over so soon I felt like I never found my element. Eventually I just gave up and took to dealing with my frustration the old fashioned way. Fucking the hell out of my partner. We never even made love once in the years we were together. I just turned him into any and all frustrations I had in life and then fucked those frustrations into submission. In retrospect, it probably wasn't the healthiest for my relationship which ended up, well, ending.
We were still living together for a while and I looked for a replacement roommate and a replacement apartment at the same time. Both seemed impossible to find. Then one night at work I ran into a regular and somehow the fact that I was moving came up and he and his roommate said that they were looking for a new roommate and was I interested? Was I? Two artists, both handsome men that I was not attracted to that I could live with, eat meals with and talk about beer and sex with. Sign me up.
One of the roommates was gone almost all of the time so it just left Hugo and I. He was French, played the guitar and was a dark and beautiful artist. Tortured really. His artwork was all over the apartment and while I was looking at his website one day I found that he does some stunning nudes. I got excited and realized that this may be my modeling salvation. He could very well save me from the insanity raging in my brain. I didn't feel the need to make useless conversation with him so we could just sit quietly and work. It would be perfect.
Over dinner the next day I asked him about his models, who he uses, when was his last model, etc and told him that I would be very interested if he ever needed one.
"Well, what are you doing now?" Hugo had this way of being suggestive without making any facial expressions, his eyes just twinkled at me.
"Well I was planning on drinking a beer and knitting, so I'm certainly game."
"Ok, I'll clean up here and you can set up in front of my easel upstairs."
I walked upstairs confidently but as I reached the top landing I felt a wave of unease. This seemed to be going quicker than I had time to process. Rather than stand around thinking I figured why not just jump right in. I stripped down to nothing and was positioned shyly in his studio by the time he made it upstairs.
"You're quick."
"So are you."
"You'd be surprised. Is that the position that you're comfortable in?"
It was and he proceeded to sit down with his charcoal and start sketching. I was positioned in a way that would hide my pussy from view and nearly all of my chest. He didn't seem to mind and worked effortlessly while I was left with my own thoughts. I started thinking about my sexual frustration and how I had gotten to where I was in the first place, nude and sitting in the bedroom studio of my roommate who I had sworn to have no intimate relations with. I was wondering if modelling would even help to take the edge off like it had in college when I glanced over at him. His eyes were still twinkling though his face was calm and collected. His sketching was getting audibly more ferocious and as I looked down at his pants where the bulge there seemed to have grown. I could see the outline of his stiffened cock. No way. He had never so much as checked my ass out that I had noticed and there he was hard and getting harder sketching me with all of my erotic parts shyly covered. I felt my pussy heat up and start to moisten. He dramatically flipped the page over and made eye contact with me.
"Would you mind changing your position a little bit for the next sketch?"
He asked in a way that implied that he would be just as happy if I stayed where I was if I felt uncomfortable and presumed nothing. He hadn't noticed my sudden arousal. Rather than reply to his question, I moved the hand covering my breast slowly down my stomach to my now quite wet pussy like I was going to cover it in an act of shyness. He was paying less attention now because he was readying his next piece and when he looked up again I had moved so that I could both touch myself without ruining the scene and give him a better view of my body. I parted my legs slightly as he looked up and gently moved my hand over my clit.
"Is this ok?"
He nodded his consent and his cock swelled even more through his ever tightening jeans. There was a small light by his easel pointed in my direction. I looked down and could see it's effect on my wet pussy. I was literally glistening. He moved his hand towards his pants and I rubbed a little harder thinking that he would soon be touching himself as well, but he just adjusted his cock to give it the room that it needed to grow and kept sketching effortlessly. When he looked back up at me and saw my even more advanced state of arousal his eyes dilated and he froze transfixed for a minute. Nothing in our previous interactions would have predicted the scene he was now witnessing. Even I had no idea this would happen. He sketched a moment more hurriedly and told me that if I would like to see the pictures I should come check them out. I stood up and took my hand off myself and slowly walked over. I walked around him and pressed my naked body against his back as I surveyed the sketch that was just born from my public masturbation. I expected to see my body in that provocative pose on display for him but what I saw shocked me. Just my hand and the parts it was touching. Nothing more.
He turned towards me and said, "you are very beautiful." I blushed again and he grabbed me by ass hard and pulled my closer to him. I thought he wanted to kiss me but instead he started touching every part of my exposed body feeling, licking, searching. For what? Whatever it was he found it in short order and started slowly sucking my clit. I started shaking and held his shoulders and grabbed his hair as I came in his mouth. We pulled apart immediately as I stood there shaking neither of us knowing what to do next.
He was still hard and his cock was throbbing hard in his pants. It wanted to be free, so I unbuttoned his pants and freed his magnificent cock. It wasn't huge and it wasn't small but it looked like a penis from a Greek sculpture. Perfect symmetry smooth skin. I was taken aback by it for a moment. He thrust his middle finger inside me with one hand and grabbed his cock with the other and touched us both while I just watched my pussy get covered in charcoal and while his face got hungrier and closer to climax. I pulled away again and grabbed his body to force him into standing. His body was even more perfect standing so I took off his shirt and kissed his lean torso while teasing his cock but not touching it directly or letting him touch himself.
We fell into his bed or I was pushed into bed it was hard to tell. The tortured art had to have been a reflection of his sexual frustration as the modeling was for mine because he thrusted into me like he wanted to touch every part of me from inside. The search for all my hidden places continued for what felt like hours. He picked me up and threw me on top. I brought myself to coming a dozen or so times using his body as a tool then he picked me up and threw me back down and entered me from behind. He grabbed my ass as he got closer and closer and then we came together, collapsed and fell asleep.
Hours later our roommate came home and walked in on that scene. He turned around as we woke up to see his horrified face and just laughed as he got hard again.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Therapy and Hygiene
"So Matt and I are seeing a therapist now and it is just so strange."
"What! Why?"
"Well, it's embarrassing really."
Terri gave Emma a knowing look that demanded she elaborate.
"I still can't have orgasms."
"What do you mean you've still never had an orgasm?" Terri yelled it across the well lit parlor of she and Emma's favorite sandwich shop.
"Shhhh. I don't know. Matt and I have been married for five years now and I guess I just can't. I mean I love him and I love having sex with him, I just... can't. I mean it's not that I've never had one ever. It's just been years and years since the last time." Emma had a habit of rambling on past the point where she had said enough. And also skipping from one subject to another seemingly in the same sentence. Talking to her always required an extra few hours if you ever wanted to get to the point of anything. Terri always thought it was cute and school-girlishly sexy.
"A thirty five year old woman should have figured this out by now. What are you going to do about it?"
"I told you, Matt and I are seeing a therapist, his idea, and trying to work our way through it. You know like a sex therapist. It was miserable. Matt cried."
"What."
"Yea, he said he felt bad about it and self conscious and like there was something wrong with him and yadda yadda yadda and now I feel like I need to do something soon before this destroys our marriage."
"Well, hell. Ok."
"OK? That's all you have to say about that. Ok?"
"Fine. Have you tried anal?"
"My therapist thinks I should keep a sex journal and write down my feelings, likes and dislikes and then read over it with Matt and you suggest a dick in my ass? I should have known that we'd end up somewhere totally unhelpful."
"Are you done freaking out about this yet?"
"Well I mean couldn't you think of a better solution. I know I need to lighten up but this is just not helpful. I don't know if Matt would even do it, I don't think I would like it, and there's poop up there. It's gross."
"Ok Em, well here's the plan and keep with me here," Terri always like to make 'plans' and they usually had to do with sexual experimentation. She even convinced Emma to have a threesome with her and a friend in college as a part of some other 'plan' to loosen Emma up and give her orgasms. "When you go home tonight find an old toothbrush. An electric one would be better if you have one. Lube up the toothbrush, lube up your ass and then just slide it up there. Easy peasy."
"What! Not easy peasy. I don't want that up there."
"I can guarantee you that you have had shits bigger than a toothbrush. Just try it and if you don't like it then you throw away an old toothbrush you would have thrown out anyhow and nobody will ever be the wiser."
"I don't know." Emma had always been reserved and inhibited. She couldn't picture herself alone in her house with a toothbrush up her ass.
"Or I could buy you a dildo and you could try it out with that. I'm thinking something classy and tasteful ten inches long and eight around. Tasty."
"I think I'll take my chances with the toothbrush."
Emma decided on forgetting that conversation and went home after lunch, new journal in hand with every intention of putting the moves on Matt and then writing about it in her new journal. But she got home and found a note from Matt saying that he was headed out with some buddies for an early dinner and some late beers and for her to not wait up for him. She set the journal down next to the note and started cleaning the kitchen and making herself generally useful around the house, but every time she passed the journal thoughts about anal kept popping into her head. It couldn't hurt to try it. And Matt wouldn't be home for hours. She did have an old toothbrush that she hadn't thrown out yet. It was an old electric one that she had stopped buying replacement bristles for because she had gotten the thing as a gift and never really liked it.
She thought about taking it into the bedroom, but what if it were messy and Matt noticed, so she slowly undressed in front of the mirror with her bottle of 'his and hers' lubricant and her old toothbrush and turned on the shower. While the water heated up she bent over in front of the mirror and spread her ass apart to reveal her puckered asshole. She relaxed a little and so did her ass. It can't be that bad right? I mean a toothbrush is very small she thought. Steam started to fog the mirror and she got into the shower. She started by running her hands over her body lingering on the places she liked to be touched, her breasts, inner thigh, the curve of her hips and then slowly started touching her clit and ended up fingering herself for a while. After a few minutes of warming up she grabbed the lube though she hardly needed any she was so wet and slid the toothbrush slowly into her ass. At first the angle of her body was awkward but it didn't feel bad so she readjusted until she was relaxed and comfortable. It started to feel really good so she kept going. The longer she thrust it into her the more aroused she became and started rubbing her clit with her free hand. She could feel climax coming soon and her juices were mixing with water and flowing down her legs. She was wetter than she had ever been. She kept thrusting and rubbing her clit and then without thinking flipped the on switch with her thumb as the toothbrush came to life. The moment the vibrations began in her ass she came. Violently. And hard. Cum flowed rapidly out of her and she collapsed on the floor of the shower unable to control the muscles in her legs just laying there for who knows how long.
When Matt came home later that night she was still awake.
"Oh, you shouldn't have waited up for me. It's late." He walked over and kissed her on the forehead and smiled lovingly at her sweet face, cheeks still flushed from her shower. Emma gave him a devilish smirk and then looked at the counter top and her journal.
"I have something you should read."
"What! Why?"
"Well, it's embarrassing really."
Terri gave Emma a knowing look that demanded she elaborate.
"I still can't have orgasms."
"What do you mean you've still never had an orgasm?" Terri yelled it across the well lit parlor of she and Emma's favorite sandwich shop.
"Shhhh. I don't know. Matt and I have been married for five years now and I guess I just can't. I mean I love him and I love having sex with him, I just... can't. I mean it's not that I've never had one ever. It's just been years and years since the last time." Emma had a habit of rambling on past the point where she had said enough. And also skipping from one subject to another seemingly in the same sentence. Talking to her always required an extra few hours if you ever wanted to get to the point of anything. Terri always thought it was cute and school-girlishly sexy.
"A thirty five year old woman should have figured this out by now. What are you going to do about it?"
"I told you, Matt and I are seeing a therapist, his idea, and trying to work our way through it. You know like a sex therapist. It was miserable. Matt cried."
"What."
"Yea, he said he felt bad about it and self conscious and like there was something wrong with him and yadda yadda yadda and now I feel like I need to do something soon before this destroys our marriage."
"Well, hell. Ok."
"OK? That's all you have to say about that. Ok?"
"Fine. Have you tried anal?"
"My therapist thinks I should keep a sex journal and write down my feelings, likes and dislikes and then read over it with Matt and you suggest a dick in my ass? I should have known that we'd end up somewhere totally unhelpful."
"Are you done freaking out about this yet?"
"Well I mean couldn't you think of a better solution. I know I need to lighten up but this is just not helpful. I don't know if Matt would even do it, I don't think I would like it, and there's poop up there. It's gross."
"Ok Em, well here's the plan and keep with me here," Terri always like to make 'plans' and they usually had to do with sexual experimentation. She even convinced Emma to have a threesome with her and a friend in college as a part of some other 'plan' to loosen Emma up and give her orgasms. "When you go home tonight find an old toothbrush. An electric one would be better if you have one. Lube up the toothbrush, lube up your ass and then just slide it up there. Easy peasy."
"What! Not easy peasy. I don't want that up there."
"I can guarantee you that you have had shits bigger than a toothbrush. Just try it and if you don't like it then you throw away an old toothbrush you would have thrown out anyhow and nobody will ever be the wiser."
"I don't know." Emma had always been reserved and inhibited. She couldn't picture herself alone in her house with a toothbrush up her ass.
"Or I could buy you a dildo and you could try it out with that. I'm thinking something classy and tasteful ten inches long and eight around. Tasty."
"I think I'll take my chances with the toothbrush."
Emma decided on forgetting that conversation and went home after lunch, new journal in hand with every intention of putting the moves on Matt and then writing about it in her new journal. But she got home and found a note from Matt saying that he was headed out with some buddies for an early dinner and some late beers and for her to not wait up for him. She set the journal down next to the note and started cleaning the kitchen and making herself generally useful around the house, but every time she passed the journal thoughts about anal kept popping into her head. It couldn't hurt to try it. And Matt wouldn't be home for hours. She did have an old toothbrush that she hadn't thrown out yet. It was an old electric one that she had stopped buying replacement bristles for because she had gotten the thing as a gift and never really liked it.
She thought about taking it into the bedroom, but what if it were messy and Matt noticed, so she slowly undressed in front of the mirror with her bottle of 'his and hers' lubricant and her old toothbrush and turned on the shower. While the water heated up she bent over in front of the mirror and spread her ass apart to reveal her puckered asshole. She relaxed a little and so did her ass. It can't be that bad right? I mean a toothbrush is very small she thought. Steam started to fog the mirror and she got into the shower. She started by running her hands over her body lingering on the places she liked to be touched, her breasts, inner thigh, the curve of her hips and then slowly started touching her clit and ended up fingering herself for a while. After a few minutes of warming up she grabbed the lube though she hardly needed any she was so wet and slid the toothbrush slowly into her ass. At first the angle of her body was awkward but it didn't feel bad so she readjusted until she was relaxed and comfortable. It started to feel really good so she kept going. The longer she thrust it into her the more aroused she became and started rubbing her clit with her free hand. She could feel climax coming soon and her juices were mixing with water and flowing down her legs. She was wetter than she had ever been. She kept thrusting and rubbing her clit and then without thinking flipped the on switch with her thumb as the toothbrush came to life. The moment the vibrations began in her ass she came. Violently. And hard. Cum flowed rapidly out of her and she collapsed on the floor of the shower unable to control the muscles in her legs just laying there for who knows how long.
When Matt came home later that night she was still awake.
"Oh, you shouldn't have waited up for me. It's late." He walked over and kissed her on the forehead and smiled lovingly at her sweet face, cheeks still flushed from her shower. Emma gave him a devilish smirk and then looked at the counter top and her journal.
"I have something you should read."
Monday, August 29, 2011
My Body is a Jungle Gym
When I was in college there were few things less appealing than the thought of having children. Marriage is fine and something I've always wanted to head towards, but kids? No, thanks. Somewhere along the line that plan got shot to hell and I am the proud mother of the most beautiful little red haired dimple girl. I see other women's babies and small children and want to talk to them and play with their kids. I'm a totally different person.
The biggest change in my life outside of the fact that, being separated from her father, I have no sex life is that I have a ton of confidence. I look more or less the same as I did before. I'm a bit thinner and after nursing and losing weight my breasts are even smaller, a feat I had previously deemed impossible. I have a couple of stretch marks on my stomach that have already mostly faded, my stomach tattoo has a couple of tiny stretch marks that are only visible if you study it intently, and I have a number of tiny imperfections all over too minor to mention. But even still, I am way more confident. Before giving birth I hated my body and all of its imperfections. I didn't hate my vagina because I have always had a deep rooted respect for that place, but the rest of me was shit.
It wasn't just the act of giving birth that changed my perception of myself but my daughter. I want to be a positive and confident role model. I want to show her to love herself and be strong and sexy and intelligent and own whatever it is that she is. And on top of all that, my daughter thinks I am the most amazing human being ever. Not just me as a mommy but my body. My body is her strength and nourishment. I hold her when she is sad or tired to my chest. When she is happy and awake she crawls all over my body like a jungle gym. I am a pullup bar, my leg can be crawled under like a tunnel. My face is an interesting and interactive toy. She loves my body and damn it, I should too.
The biggest change in my life outside of the fact that, being separated from her father, I have no sex life is that I have a ton of confidence. I look more or less the same as I did before. I'm a bit thinner and after nursing and losing weight my breasts are even smaller, a feat I had previously deemed impossible. I have a couple of stretch marks on my stomach that have already mostly faded, my stomach tattoo has a couple of tiny stretch marks that are only visible if you study it intently, and I have a number of tiny imperfections all over too minor to mention. But even still, I am way more confident. Before giving birth I hated my body and all of its imperfections. I didn't hate my vagina because I have always had a deep rooted respect for that place, but the rest of me was shit.
It wasn't just the act of giving birth that changed my perception of myself but my daughter. I want to be a positive and confident role model. I want to show her to love herself and be strong and sexy and intelligent and own whatever it is that she is. And on top of all that, my daughter thinks I am the most amazing human being ever. Not just me as a mommy but my body. My body is her strength and nourishment. I hold her when she is sad or tired to my chest. When she is happy and awake she crawls all over my body like a jungle gym. I am a pullup bar, my leg can be crawled under like a tunnel. My face is an interesting and interactive toy. She loves my body and damn it, I should too.
Sunday, August 28, 2011
The Story of the Hurricane
They met online. She responded to a personal ad he had placed. Neither of them expected much. He was expecting spam and vapid uninteresting responses and she, well she didn’t much know what to expect, but certainly not this. They had talked online a bit about generalities and finally after some prodding she pushed him into talking about sex. He was hesitant at first but once they started talking about it they couldn’t stop talking, longing, needing each other imagining their bodies pressed against each other nipples and penis and clit all erect the heat and friction and full body sensation, covered in goose bumps but sweating in the end of summer heat.
They thought about the other throughout the day but had never met even for coffee or a beer. They in reality had no real idea what the other looked like. There was a solid chance that, being the internet and all, that they could both be obese oafs with grease stained t-shirts, and some combination of man tits, a fupa, too many cats or a debilitating masturbation addiction. Maybe even all of the above.
But in reality they were both normal average people with one thing in common. Since they had met online and started chatting the same thing awakened inside of them, unshakable and constant arousal. They masturbated to the thought of the other and still couldn’t shake it.
After a couple of weeks of this a hurricane struck hundreds of miles south and the rain and wind worked its way up the coast to their state. They planned to meet but cancelled at the last minute and instead talked all day while they weathered out the storm. By nightfall, the hurricane’s intensity had waned but theirs had not. They decided to meet immediately and his place, though three hours away from hers. As she drove to meet him the wind gently moved her car on the road and the vibrations filled her body. By the time she got to his place her whole body was tingling and alive.
He met her at her car. She saw him and got wet and excited just looking at him. As she stepped out of her car, to buy time and regain composure she stepped out of the car and went to grab her bag from the backseat of the car. He walked over with the intention of giving her a hello hug but the closer he got the electricity and desire took over and instead he grabbed her from behind and pressed his stiff cock against the zipper of his jeans and the seat of hers. She had another surge of wetness and dropped the bag in the back seat, turned around and their bodies and mouths finally met.
She jumped up in his arms, wrapped her legs around his body and rubbed herself against him as they continued making out in the hard wind and rain. He started moving toward the door to his house, but instead she jumped down grabbed and held his bulge and pushed him against the nearest tree she could find. Once he was pressed against the tree she unzipped his pants and pulled his penis out through the fly and started going down in him tasting his delicious precome that had been waiting for her for so long. She got wetter listening to his moaning as the rain dripped off her face and pooled on his jeans around the base of his shaft. She started to slip his pants down to his knees and fondled his balls as he appeared to approach climax. She stopped sucking on his dick pulled up her skirt and put his hand between her legs as he kissed her neck pulling down her shirt as he moved lower down the nape of her neck. With his free hand he started pulling up the bottom of her shirt inching his hand upward and his mouth downward his other hand still up her skirt. She was backed against the tree now and nearly collapsing as she shook uncontrollably from the heat in her body, the cool of the rain, and the feel of his mouth, hands and dick as they explored every inch of her limp and compliant body. She started to lose all consciousness as he pressed her harder against the tree and explored every inch of her.
She regained consciousness in a snap and pushed him down into the muddy grass under the tree pulled his wet and sticky pants completely off, threw off her own clothing and mounted him. It had been sometime since her last partner and although her pussy was drenched with rain and desire she was tight and he nearly came as he slid slowly inside her. He held her pelvis in place for a moment while he took a deep breath and then lifted her hips at a slow and steady pace until he had regained control. The slow steady pace caused her to come in just a few slow deep thrusts and she widened to accept his dick inside her deeper. She threw her head back wildly whipping her drenched hair around as it stuck to her face in her eyes dripping rain and sweat from her locks into her open moaning mouth as she came two more times contracting the muscles inside her each time a little stronger. This sent him past the point of no return and he thrusted hard into her while he came hot come deep within her right up against her cervix as she collapsed on top of him.
They both lost all consciousness for who knows how long but when they regained their composure they had started to get cold from the rain beading on the curve of her lower back and in his belly button. She kissed his neck drinking the water and sweat that had collected in beads all over his body moving down his chest slowly until she reached his belly button where she drank the water there and lingered for a moment as his cock began to stiffen against her chest and hard nipples. She sprung up suddenly and pulled him to his feet with her as they sauntered inside wet clothes in hand.
They thought about the other throughout the day but had never met even for coffee or a beer. They in reality had no real idea what the other looked like. There was a solid chance that, being the internet and all, that they could both be obese oafs with grease stained t-shirts, and some combination of man tits, a fupa, too many cats or a debilitating masturbation addiction. Maybe even all of the above.
But in reality they were both normal average people with one thing in common. Since they had met online and started chatting the same thing awakened inside of them, unshakable and constant arousal. They masturbated to the thought of the other and still couldn’t shake it.
After a couple of weeks of this a hurricane struck hundreds of miles south and the rain and wind worked its way up the coast to their state. They planned to meet but cancelled at the last minute and instead talked all day while they weathered out the storm. By nightfall, the hurricane’s intensity had waned but theirs had not. They decided to meet immediately and his place, though three hours away from hers. As she drove to meet him the wind gently moved her car on the road and the vibrations filled her body. By the time she got to his place her whole body was tingling and alive.
He met her at her car. She saw him and got wet and excited just looking at him. As she stepped out of her car, to buy time and regain composure she stepped out of the car and went to grab her bag from the backseat of the car. He walked over with the intention of giving her a hello hug but the closer he got the electricity and desire took over and instead he grabbed her from behind and pressed his stiff cock against the zipper of his jeans and the seat of hers. She had another surge of wetness and dropped the bag in the back seat, turned around and their bodies and mouths finally met.
She jumped up in his arms, wrapped her legs around his body and rubbed herself against him as they continued making out in the hard wind and rain. He started moving toward the door to his house, but instead she jumped down grabbed and held his bulge and pushed him against the nearest tree she could find. Once he was pressed against the tree she unzipped his pants and pulled his penis out through the fly and started going down in him tasting his delicious precome that had been waiting for her for so long. She got wetter listening to his moaning as the rain dripped off her face and pooled on his jeans around the base of his shaft. She started to slip his pants down to his knees and fondled his balls as he appeared to approach climax. She stopped sucking on his dick pulled up her skirt and put his hand between her legs as he kissed her neck pulling down her shirt as he moved lower down the nape of her neck. With his free hand he started pulling up the bottom of her shirt inching his hand upward and his mouth downward his other hand still up her skirt. She was backed against the tree now and nearly collapsing as she shook uncontrollably from the heat in her body, the cool of the rain, and the feel of his mouth, hands and dick as they explored every inch of her limp and compliant body. She started to lose all consciousness as he pressed her harder against the tree and explored every inch of her.
She regained consciousness in a snap and pushed him down into the muddy grass under the tree pulled his wet and sticky pants completely off, threw off her own clothing and mounted him. It had been sometime since her last partner and although her pussy was drenched with rain and desire she was tight and he nearly came as he slid slowly inside her. He held her pelvis in place for a moment while he took a deep breath and then lifted her hips at a slow and steady pace until he had regained control. The slow steady pace caused her to come in just a few slow deep thrusts and she widened to accept his dick inside her deeper. She threw her head back wildly whipping her drenched hair around as it stuck to her face in her eyes dripping rain and sweat from her locks into her open moaning mouth as she came two more times contracting the muscles inside her each time a little stronger. This sent him past the point of no return and he thrusted hard into her while he came hot come deep within her right up against her cervix as she collapsed on top of him.
They both lost all consciousness for who knows how long but when they regained their composure they had started to get cold from the rain beading on the curve of her lower back and in his belly button. She kissed his neck drinking the water and sweat that had collected in beads all over his body moving down his chest slowly until she reached his belly button where she drank the water there and lingered for a moment as his cock began to stiffen against her chest and hard nipples. She sprung up suddenly and pulled him to his feet with her as they sauntered inside wet clothes in hand.
Monday, August 22, 2011
Pet Peeve Time!
So, I have been trying to date. I am fairly pretty and thin and intelligent and well spoken. Men hit on me all the time. I hate it. Who cares what I look like? I mean really? In a relationship it doesn't matter what a person looks like if you can't stand to spend time with them. Anyhow, I had been on a million first dates and only one second date. More than I hate being judged by my appearance I really hate it when men try to talk themselves up sexually. So, I am going to give some great relationship advice for men:
Do
Not
Tell
Women
How
Much
You
Love
To
Eat
Pussy
.
.
.
Ever.
Not on a first date, not on a second date. Not on any date that precedes intercourse. The only time it is ok is after performing the act. You can say something like "God, I really love the [taste][smell][feel] of your [insert word for vagina here]. Don't tell a women you want to date or even just fuck how much you like to please a woman. Don't brag about your sexual abilities. Don't say that you never leave a woman dissatisfied. There are a few ways to hint at your sexual abilities in a sly and quietly confident, sexy manner, but just coming right out and laying it all on the table... not sexy.
You're welcome.
Do
Not
Tell
Women
How
Much
You
Love
To
Eat
Pussy
.
.
.
Ever.
Not on a first date, not on a second date. Not on any date that precedes intercourse. The only time it is ok is after performing the act. You can say something like "God, I really love the [taste][smell][feel] of your [insert word for vagina here]. Don't tell a women you want to date or even just fuck how much you like to please a woman. Don't brag about your sexual abilities. Don't say that you never leave a woman dissatisfied. There are a few ways to hint at your sexual abilities in a sly and quietly confident, sexy manner, but just coming right out and laying it all on the table... not sexy.
You're welcome.
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Postpartum Labia
I have seen a lot of porn. I've seen some really sexy amateur porn, I've seen some interesting commercial porn, and I have seen some depraved sexual acts that should never have been filmed (two girls, one cup? Anybody?). After seeing all of this porn I noticed that some women are what a friend of mine calls 'innies' and others are 'outies.' I'm an innie for sure, but knowing nothing about the female anatomy outside of my own I assumed that outies occurred as a result of hard fucking, abuse, and childbirth. Little did I know that is not the case. The differences are genetic and all forms of labia are totally normal. Mine are just small, tucked in and close together. And although small tidy labia are commercially attractive, I have recently become jealous of the extra labia many women have. It increases friction and helps to move lubrication from the vaginal opening to the clitoris and labia. Extra sensation and extra lubrication? Yes please! Having a smaller vagina the additional lubrication would be so nice. I wouldn't need so much foreplay and it wouldn't be so hard to get inside me. Anyhow...
While I was pushing my daughter into the world I remember thinking "oh god, my vagina is going to be gigantic after this!" As little as a month later (maybe sooner but I didn't investigate sooner) not only was everything exactly the way I remembered it being but I was actually a little bit tighter. The vagina is an amazing thing. It can give amazing pleasure to both partners, it can adjust to the size of any partner, and it can push and bleed and bring life into this world. The vagina is amazing. My vagina is amazing.
While I was pushing my daughter into the world I remember thinking "oh god, my vagina is going to be gigantic after this!" As little as a month later (maybe sooner but I didn't investigate sooner) not only was everything exactly the way I remembered it being but I was actually a little bit tighter. The vagina is an amazing thing. It can give amazing pleasure to both partners, it can adjust to the size of any partner, and it can push and bleed and bring life into this world. The vagina is amazing. My vagina is amazing.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Twenty Four Years in the Making
So being a hypersexual human being one would think that I had figured out ages ago how to give myself orgasms. That I would be a masturbation fiend. No, and no. I didn’t even have my first orgasm until I was twenty, two years after becoming sexually active. I remember my first orgasm very vividly. I had lesbian friends who tried to talk me through orgasms, hetero friends who gave me advice, men who claimed I needed them to hand deliver me orgasms. In reality, I just needed to let go and allow my body to tell me what to do. I needed time. I needed to grow into my sexuality not just possess sexuality. It was a hard earned lesson in listening to the signals of my own body and one that I still keep in mind for all aspects of my life.
My first orgasm was with Jay. I call him the phantom boyfriend nowadays. He was my first true love and my first orgasm. The first person I actually made love to (another good story for sure). I don’t often talk about Jay, but Jay was fantastic. He wasn’t a sexual god, and I’m certainly no sexual goddess. But I loved Jay with every particle of my being. My body was ready for, itching for climax. I was comfortable with myself and had recently learned to love my body and listen to it. It was time.
Jay and I had a hit or miss sex life. We either had sex as often as we could or we bickered and got angry and were too bitter to have makeup sex. This particular night we had been on a good stretch for a while and were in a phase of constant fucking interspersed with some love making. After dinner that night I grabbed him by the crotch of his skinny jeans and felt his cock respond instantly. We headed back to my room because my roommate lived in the library and would be there till ten when it closed. We practically fell through the door trying to get at each other as fast as we could. We were naked immediately but he stopped me from going further. I wanted him inside me but he made me wait and started stroking my clit with his dick. At first I didn’t know how to respond. It felt nice, but it was different and new and slow like making love as we were wont to do, but still headed towards passionate fucking. I started to get so excited with anticipation and realized that I was leaking all over the sheets, his dick, and my clit. We were covered in the stuff. I would have normally felt self-conscious about the amount of fluid but this time I just embraced what my body was doing. I grabbed his cock and started stroking it while I rubbed it against my clit a little harder and faster and in a few minutes I came. I. Came…. Me. The biologically incapable of coming, me… just came. I yelled out in passion and he came all over my hot wet body. We collapsed and hadn’t even had intercourse but were both so fully satisfied that it was all we needed.
From that moment on I could come almost any time I wanted to. I came during foreplay, I came during sex, I came after sex while our bodies were still connected. I’m not great at orgasming in the morning because I don’t have the mental strength to procure one. I just enjoy the sensation of a hard cock sliding in and out of me as a way to start the day so I didn't do much coming in the morning. But once again, that’s another story.
Four years after my first orgasm and six after the beginning of my sexual journey, I still was incapable of producing an orgasm on my own. I could come if I masturbated in front of a partner but not on my own in private. It seemed contrived. Fake. Meaningless. I didn’t like it.
And then the magical day came. I had a play date with my daughter and some friends and their infant daughter. We all went on a hike and my daughter enjoyed it so thoroughly that she didn’t take a nap all morning. When we got back home she was exhausted and immediately fell asleep. I had what I guessed would be about two hours of free time. A few days earlier I had bought a bunch of books, one of which was a book by Penthouse that had a bunch of letters, written by women, about sex. Some were fictional some may not have been but they were sexy. I started reading them and got wet almost immediately. I figured, ‘what the hell, it couldn’t hurt to give it another try.’ As I read I gently and slowly started to touch myself, almost absent mindedly, assuming that my fumbling caresses would lead nowhere. The more I read and touched myself the wetter I got and it dawned on me that I was becoming more excited than I had ever been alone before. I was reading about this woman who had a sex drive that far exceeded that of her partner’s (I could relate) and she subsequently decided to seek out alternate partners to supplement her already active sex life (I could not relate). But as I read more of her passionate hookup with her random stranger and the longing she felt in general as well as for her sexy stranger man I related in a way that was beyond just a sympathy of ideas. I felt her. I came as I read and touched myself.
I was so excited that I just lay there smiling for quite a while and then started reading again. Some other story, some other sexually frustrated woman and came again. I felt empowered and sexy and free. It was glorious and will likely continue to be for some time.
My first orgasm was with Jay. I call him the phantom boyfriend nowadays. He was my first true love and my first orgasm. The first person I actually made love to (another good story for sure). I don’t often talk about Jay, but Jay was fantastic. He wasn’t a sexual god, and I’m certainly no sexual goddess. But I loved Jay with every particle of my being. My body was ready for, itching for climax. I was comfortable with myself and had recently learned to love my body and listen to it. It was time.
Jay and I had a hit or miss sex life. We either had sex as often as we could or we bickered and got angry and were too bitter to have makeup sex. This particular night we had been on a good stretch for a while and were in a phase of constant fucking interspersed with some love making. After dinner that night I grabbed him by the crotch of his skinny jeans and felt his cock respond instantly. We headed back to my room because my roommate lived in the library and would be there till ten when it closed. We practically fell through the door trying to get at each other as fast as we could. We were naked immediately but he stopped me from going further. I wanted him inside me but he made me wait and started stroking my clit with his dick. At first I didn’t know how to respond. It felt nice, but it was different and new and slow like making love as we were wont to do, but still headed towards passionate fucking. I started to get so excited with anticipation and realized that I was leaking all over the sheets, his dick, and my clit. We were covered in the stuff. I would have normally felt self-conscious about the amount of fluid but this time I just embraced what my body was doing. I grabbed his cock and started stroking it while I rubbed it against my clit a little harder and faster and in a few minutes I came. I. Came…. Me. The biologically incapable of coming, me… just came. I yelled out in passion and he came all over my hot wet body. We collapsed and hadn’t even had intercourse but were both so fully satisfied that it was all we needed.
From that moment on I could come almost any time I wanted to. I came during foreplay, I came during sex, I came after sex while our bodies were still connected. I’m not great at orgasming in the morning because I don’t have the mental strength to procure one. I just enjoy the sensation of a hard cock sliding in and out of me as a way to start the day so I didn't do much coming in the morning. But once again, that’s another story.
Four years after my first orgasm and six after the beginning of my sexual journey, I still was incapable of producing an orgasm on my own. I could come if I masturbated in front of a partner but not on my own in private. It seemed contrived. Fake. Meaningless. I didn’t like it.
And then the magical day came. I had a play date with my daughter and some friends and their infant daughter. We all went on a hike and my daughter enjoyed it so thoroughly that she didn’t take a nap all morning. When we got back home she was exhausted and immediately fell asleep. I had what I guessed would be about two hours of free time. A few days earlier I had bought a bunch of books, one of which was a book by Penthouse that had a bunch of letters, written by women, about sex. Some were fictional some may not have been but they were sexy. I started reading them and got wet almost immediately. I figured, ‘what the hell, it couldn’t hurt to give it another try.’ As I read I gently and slowly started to touch myself, almost absent mindedly, assuming that my fumbling caresses would lead nowhere. The more I read and touched myself the wetter I got and it dawned on me that I was becoming more excited than I had ever been alone before. I was reading about this woman who had a sex drive that far exceeded that of her partner’s (I could relate) and she subsequently decided to seek out alternate partners to supplement her already active sex life (I could not relate). But as I read more of her passionate hookup with her random stranger and the longing she felt in general as well as for her sexy stranger man I related in a way that was beyond just a sympathy of ideas. I felt her. I came as I read and touched myself.
I was so excited that I just lay there smiling for quite a while and then started reading again. Some other story, some other sexually frustrated woman and came again. I felt empowered and sexy and free. It was glorious and will likely continue to be for some time.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
For the Love of Cock
I’m just going to admit it. I love cock. I love the way it feels, I love the way it looks. The way it nods its head when its happy. I love them thick and thin, short and long, totally straight or bent to the side just a little. More than anything though, I love giving head. The taste, the smoothness in my mouth, the salty precome, it all feels so good. I moan just from the act of giving head as I get wetter with anticipation. My nipples harden and I try to go as long as I can without touching myself. I love to sixty nine and have my face buried in balls my mouth filled with dick and his face buried in my wetness fingers inside me, throbbing clit and pounding heart shoving his cock deeper into my mouth as I come from sensation overload and as he thrusts deeper down my throat gently vibrating the shaft with my moans of ecstasy. I just love cock.
Friday, August 5, 2011
I didn't know Jack
I met Jack online. In my foray into single motherhood I was nervous meeting men the traditional way and thought if I met them online first they could get to know me as a person rather than see my physical body and think only of sex. I’m not a supermodel. I am an active, thin, average woman with an above average sexuality and a confidence that is probably beyond my years. Men see me and an intelligent one will immediately recognize the sexual urgings barely beneath the surface. I exude sexuality and longing. Anything I may lack physically (boobs) I make up for with passion. I attract men who are intuitive enough to see that. Not many can keep up with my desire but they never fail to try. A for effort in my book.
Jack was a few years older, intelligent, professional, averagely good looking, muscular, interesting. He wore glasses and dressed in an entirely unremarkable manner. More than that though, the first time we met, he looked at me like a beautiful woman. Not physically but in an all-encompassing, hungry for me, longing sort of way. On our first date in a coffee shop we spent four hours talking about life, relationships, sex in any and all forms. Sometime during the conversation a physical need I hadn’t addressed in a long time woke up in me and I needed him. Soon.
We talked on the phone, chatted online, sent e-mails and I made it very clear that I wanted him badly. It wasn’t just the physical. My favorite moment of sex is the after party. Covered in sweat and cum and hair and saliva, tangled up in the sheets and each other like a pile of balled up scraps of paper in the wastebasket. Exhausted and throbbing just lying there after fucking wildly. That is when the real love making begins. Worshiping each other’s bodies for the acts they had just committed. I longed for that with Jack. I was wet all the time and couldn’t get the yearning for him to cease.
Jack was passionate and seemingly sexual. He said that he liked to just dive in head first and have passionate committed relationships. He was also excited by the prospect of intercourse. My kind of guy. I am not emotionally unavailable. I’m not sexually elusive. I’m not inhibited or passive or dishonest or even difficult to read. I am not a mystery. He seemed of the same ilk. It excited me to think of the combustibility of our interactions. It promised to be passionate and explosive and amazing.
Not too much time passed before I decided that if anything were to happen between the two of we would need to know that we were sexually compatible. Additionally, I was going out of my mind and needed a release. I found a babysitter, drove to his place on more or less a whim, against my better judgment. He said there would be no pressure, he just wanted to sleep next to me.
When I got there I probably looked frumpy. I was wearing a plain tank top, a button down flannel shirt, and some jeans. I had on a sexy bra and panties and didn’t bring in any pjs though they were in the car. I was nervous and sat far away from him while I pat his dog that was remarkably sweet and cuddly. He brought me wine and we talked. I moved closer when he got up to get me a second glass. When he came back into the living room with my wine he laughed and said, “I see you’ve moved closer.” That quiet mildly cocky, but totally sexy confidence just kills me. I shyly sat there drinking wine, chatting with him and staring at his crotch every time I got the chance. By this time the wine had kicked in and I was feeling loosened up. I finished my wine and he asked, “would you like another?”
I would have answered him but instead straddled him and started passionately kissing him. I could feel the blood rushing into my genitals and his as his cock pressed against his jeans and mine. Without a break in oral contact, I threw off my flannel and he took that as a signal to stand up, also not missing a beat, and carried me into his bedroom. We feverishly undressed each other and I had a fistful of cock before I could even process where I was.
He had the sort of body that looked like he would have a bit of a belly, but naked his body was hard, masculine and strong. Large upper half, thin toned lower half. Broad shoulders. Scant body hair. Slight musky odor. His cock was hard and rigid, and thicker than I had imagined. It was wonderful. I had hoped for hours of foreplay and coming and anticipation and teasing but I was drenched with excitement and soon he was inside of me. I nearly came the instant he entered me. He threw me on top and I came once and then again a few minutes later. Then he held my hips and had me stop. I tried to keep going and he held my hips in place and then got on top and brushed the hair from my face.
“You’re intense,” he said.
“I really want you.”
I suddenly felt very self-conscious.
“Is something wrong?” I asked.
“You’re just really intense.”
“What do you mean? Is it a bad thing?”
“I don’t know. I just question your promiscuity.”
My what? Did he really just call me a slut because I’m good in bed? I had never had any complaints before. Where the hell did that even come from? I rolled over in bed and faced the wall. A few tears welled up in my eyes and any wetness seemed to evaporate on the spot. He didn't say anything for a while and then rolled over towards me and put his hand gently on my shoulder. We talked for a while and he said that my intensity just surprised him. He didn't mean what it sounded like he meant. He said that I 'floored' him and then he held me for a long time. After a while started kissing again and eventually worked our way to sex and this time he didn’t stop me. My heart wasn’t in it so I just let my body act on its own and we both came again but it wasn’t the same. I woke up early and we had sex again, this time my parts were a little sore from hard fucking and months of being out of commission. He came, I didn’t and we had an awkward goodbye.
I’d love to say that I sent him an e-mail the next day standing up for myself, told him off, and then went on a date with another man, had passionate raucous animal sex, and then never saw Jack again. I did send him an email, I didn’t tell him off, went on a date with another man who I didn’t even kiss, and then talked to Jack the next day. A few days later I saw him again and we had sex that night and then the next morning. It was much better but still cautious. I really liked Jack, he was kind and quietly confident. His body was unspeakably sexy, he wanted the same things I did in life and he was intelligent. I need a passionate uninhibited man who sees sexual desire and passion as a desirable attribute. Maybe that is him and maybe it isn't. If it isn't him does that man even exist?
Jack was a few years older, intelligent, professional, averagely good looking, muscular, interesting. He wore glasses and dressed in an entirely unremarkable manner. More than that though, the first time we met, he looked at me like a beautiful woman. Not physically but in an all-encompassing, hungry for me, longing sort of way. On our first date in a coffee shop we spent four hours talking about life, relationships, sex in any and all forms. Sometime during the conversation a physical need I hadn’t addressed in a long time woke up in me and I needed him. Soon.
We talked on the phone, chatted online, sent e-mails and I made it very clear that I wanted him badly. It wasn’t just the physical. My favorite moment of sex is the after party. Covered in sweat and cum and hair and saliva, tangled up in the sheets and each other like a pile of balled up scraps of paper in the wastebasket. Exhausted and throbbing just lying there after fucking wildly. That is when the real love making begins. Worshiping each other’s bodies for the acts they had just committed. I longed for that with Jack. I was wet all the time and couldn’t get the yearning for him to cease.
Jack was passionate and seemingly sexual. He said that he liked to just dive in head first and have passionate committed relationships. He was also excited by the prospect of intercourse. My kind of guy. I am not emotionally unavailable. I’m not sexually elusive. I’m not inhibited or passive or dishonest or even difficult to read. I am not a mystery. He seemed of the same ilk. It excited me to think of the combustibility of our interactions. It promised to be passionate and explosive and amazing.
Not too much time passed before I decided that if anything were to happen between the two of we would need to know that we were sexually compatible. Additionally, I was going out of my mind and needed a release. I found a babysitter, drove to his place on more or less a whim, against my better judgment. He said there would be no pressure, he just wanted to sleep next to me.
When I got there I probably looked frumpy. I was wearing a plain tank top, a button down flannel shirt, and some jeans. I had on a sexy bra and panties and didn’t bring in any pjs though they were in the car. I was nervous and sat far away from him while I pat his dog that was remarkably sweet and cuddly. He brought me wine and we talked. I moved closer when he got up to get me a second glass. When he came back into the living room with my wine he laughed and said, “I see you’ve moved closer.” That quiet mildly cocky, but totally sexy confidence just kills me. I shyly sat there drinking wine, chatting with him and staring at his crotch every time I got the chance. By this time the wine had kicked in and I was feeling loosened up. I finished my wine and he asked, “would you like another?”
I would have answered him but instead straddled him and started passionately kissing him. I could feel the blood rushing into my genitals and his as his cock pressed against his jeans and mine. Without a break in oral contact, I threw off my flannel and he took that as a signal to stand up, also not missing a beat, and carried me into his bedroom. We feverishly undressed each other and I had a fistful of cock before I could even process where I was.
He had the sort of body that looked like he would have a bit of a belly, but naked his body was hard, masculine and strong. Large upper half, thin toned lower half. Broad shoulders. Scant body hair. Slight musky odor. His cock was hard and rigid, and thicker than I had imagined. It was wonderful. I had hoped for hours of foreplay and coming and anticipation and teasing but I was drenched with excitement and soon he was inside of me. I nearly came the instant he entered me. He threw me on top and I came once and then again a few minutes later. Then he held my hips and had me stop. I tried to keep going and he held my hips in place and then got on top and brushed the hair from my face.
“You’re intense,” he said.
“I really want you.”
I suddenly felt very self-conscious.
“Is something wrong?” I asked.
“You’re just really intense.”
“What do you mean? Is it a bad thing?”
“I don’t know. I just question your promiscuity.”
My what? Did he really just call me a slut because I’m good in bed? I had never had any complaints before. Where the hell did that even come from? I rolled over in bed and faced the wall. A few tears welled up in my eyes and any wetness seemed to evaporate on the spot. He didn't say anything for a while and then rolled over towards me and put his hand gently on my shoulder. We talked for a while and he said that my intensity just surprised him. He didn't mean what it sounded like he meant. He said that I 'floored' him and then he held me for a long time. After a while started kissing again and eventually worked our way to sex and this time he didn’t stop me. My heart wasn’t in it so I just let my body act on its own and we both came again but it wasn’t the same. I woke up early and we had sex again, this time my parts were a little sore from hard fucking and months of being out of commission. He came, I didn’t and we had an awkward goodbye.
I’d love to say that I sent him an e-mail the next day standing up for myself, told him off, and then went on a date with another man, had passionate raucous animal sex, and then never saw Jack again. I did send him an email, I didn’t tell him off, went on a date with another man who I didn’t even kiss, and then talked to Jack the next day. A few days later I saw him again and we had sex that night and then the next morning. It was much better but still cautious. I really liked Jack, he was kind and quietly confident. His body was unspeakably sexy, he wanted the same things I did in life and he was intelligent. I need a passionate uninhibited man who sees sexual desire and passion as a desirable attribute. Maybe that is him and maybe it isn't. If it isn't him does that man even exist?
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
And Now for Something Completely Different
I had been using this to post book reviews and to put some of my fiction and poetry into the blogosphere for the past few years. Lately I have been in some sort of extreme sexual overdrive. I've been reading about sex, thinking about sex, not having sex, and more or less going crazy. Some stories in this will be sexual some not. Some of it is autobiographical, some not, but it is all an outlet for the throbbing passion inside of me. I still have the book reviews saved as drafts and can produce one on request, but honestly, who wouldn't rather read about sex?
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